I made the executive decision to open ALANs tumblr today. Just now.
What the hell was I waiting for, it was easy. It’s taken (not literally but it feels like) forever to get to this point.
I have spent the last year fraught with stress over how to start showing the existence of ALAN – I’ve worried myself with how it might look and who cares and why am I doing this and who is ALAN anyway.. but I’ve done it now. And a weight has been lifted.
All the trauma over how ALAN might come to be has meant that ALAN kinda went into hiding for a few months.. which is ridiculous now I think about it.
I had to just let go of trying to be in control over everything. I am in control of nothing. ALAN was never meant to be forced, ALAN comes naturally, I don’t know why I’ve spent so long in the deliberation process.. Well .. I do .. I’m a a perfectionist, and I care too much about what other people think.
Is ALAN art? I have no idea.
I’ve done it now.
ALAN is live. Alive. A-LIVE.